Monday, October 31, 2011

Breaking Through

I'm sorry it took me so long to finally get this finished. This is really only a snippet of the hundreds of photos that make up the past years and tell our story. Danica LOVES this Toby Mac song and especially dancing around while singing it in her sweet voice. I dreamed and dreamed of having a big celebration party when we reached this point in healing. It turns out God has a little bit further for our family to go. We still believe what sometimes seem like curses are truly God's way of blessing us more than we could have imagined and pointing us continually to the story of REDEMPTION and forever healing in His Son.

"When you realize that the story of your life could be told a thousand different ways, that you could tell it over and over as a tragedy, but you choose to call it epic, that’s when you start to learn what celebration is. When you see in front of you is so far outside of what you dreamed, but you have the belief, the boldness, the courage to call it beautiful instead of calling it wrong, that’s celebration. When you can invest yourself deeply and unremittingly in the life that surrounds you instead of declaring yourself out of the game once and for all, because what’s happened to you is too bad, too deep, too ugly for anyone to expect you to move on from, that’s that good, rich place. That’s the place where the things that looked for all intents and purposes like curses start to stand up and shimmer and dance, and you realize with a gasp that they may have been blessings all along. Or maybe not. Maybe they were curses, in fact, but the force of your belief and your hope and your desperate love for life as it is actually unfolding, has brought a blessing from a curse, like water from a stone, like life from a tomb, like the actual story of God over and over. I would never try to tell you that every bad thing is a really good thing, just waiting to be gazed at with pretty new eyes, just waiting to be shined up and- ta-da!........there is something just past the heartbreak, just past the curse, just past the despair, and that thing is beautiful. You don’t want it to be beautiful, at first. You want to stay in the pain and blackness because it feels familiar, and because you’re not done feeling victimized and smashed up. But one day you’ll wake up surprised and humbled staring at something you thought for sure was a curse and has revealed itself to be a blessing-a beautiful, delicate blessing." Shauna Niequist, Cold Tangerines

My suboccipital decompression, reduction of basilar invagination and cranio cervical fusion will be performed by Dr. Fraser Henderson Monday, November 21st, at Doctor's Community Hospital in Lanham, Maryland.  Our hope remains!


  1. Love the quote above! That is it exactly. We have been going through I Peter at church and yesterday was from 4:12-19 - directions for Christians who are suffering. The whole purpose of it all is to prove and refine our faith to entrust ourselves completely into His hands, knowing that He alone can make something beautiful out of it all - a manifestation of His glory.

    Rejoicing with Danica (and you all!) and praying much for the "next step" in your journey as you now face surgery (again!). Keep looking at His face and marvelous grace. "Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: but rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy." I Peter 4:12, 13

  2. I loved that video! Thanks for taking the time to put it together & share with us! My favorite picture might be the one of Dan & Danica at the end next to the screen with the scans. Dan looks so happy & to see Danica's little neck is just pure joy! I teared up. So happy things have turned around for her & I am already praying for your upcoming surgery! God is still in control...

  3. In a word...POWERFUL. Ya'll are amazing for being willing to share the details of this journey with the rest of us. I'm saddened by the pain you've had to endure, but encouraged by the resilience you've displayed. It's clearly His handiwork!

  4. My daughter goes to Cincinnati also for her Chiari. Natalie also has some instability. I would love to talk to you further. Please contact me. Thank you! :) Melody